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Saturday, March 5, 2016

T-cup , forever filled our cup of LIFE!

We knew-she knew, the past few weeks found our sweet feline,
saying goodbye to us.

T-cup ( Main Coon)  took her last bow this morning after a heart wrenching
night. 16 years ago, we remember bringing her home
and we don't think there has ever been a day
when we were not touched by her multi layered
personality and her love for us all.
She even loved the riot boys...
never made any fuss when they came into our home...
loved them tenderly every moment she was with them. 


She fought to stay, but her body just gave up.
The hardest  thing about saying goodbye is taking the steps
to free her from pain. 

YOU have to  love so deeply to understand that.
We certainly know that  emotion too well.
We hurt so much, because we loved her so much!

It was not that long ago, we had to say goodbye to Sumatra...
This morning all that sadness came back,
but it also made it easy too as now T-cup is with Sumatra....
We both held hands and both whispered, "she has missed you so"....
we will too..."  but now you must go"....xxx



This was taken just a couple weeks ago, when the sun just came kissing her all over..
Gosh she loved warmth and the sun...We are so pleased she got to outside
a couple weeks ago to bask in the sun...


This was just last spring....they both were here, Sumatra leading T-cup
to play.... hard to believe they will not be here for summer gardening..
They both love to help us in the garden...ok, maybe not help...
but they were so curious at what we were planting....
they loved the smells as much as we did...
But never did they tramp or eat any of our garden crops or flowers...

 They were both such a pair...so different and yet so alike...

They were constant companions!
She loved this spot , it was her chair and with the table cloth
hanging over the side, the perfect shaded spot....


I think this day she finally relinquished to my constant photo taking of her...
She really did not like the camera....but this day, she was a gem...

 Over the years especially the last 2, we noted she was losing weight..
She was such a large cat in her prime, 19 pounds at her heaviest, but that
is normal for a Main Coon-these last 2 years we noted her losing a couple
pounds a year....Age does that  to our sweet pets.



We so remember this day, they were both so playful, playing behind Miss C quilt...
they both loved quilts....



She loved our garden, she was very protective of our yard and also Sumo and Monchat..
Just a couple months ago, she put up a fight with a neighboring cat to keep her "boys" safe..
She became the matriarch of our family! 


We loved watching her sleep, because it was during those times she looked so peaceful.
She slept about 22 hours a day this past year....



This is one of Davids' fav shots of her taken a few weeks ago..
..she was on her tower, completely safe
and happy....

Today will be a very hard day with all the days to follow but we will try 
to remember all the treasured moments she gave us for 16 years....

We thank our sweet T-cup for the most beautiful moments
that only she could give us. We shall remember her with such
sweet thoughts, we shall miss mornings and afternoons and nights with her...
WE shall miss so many tender sweet moments that will live forever in her hearts
today, tomorrow and always.

We shall remember that she loved us as much as we loved her..

WE will miss you sweet thing....
Your keepers this lifetime and next..

 so lovingly David and Mdm Samm 




114 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear the news...it has been a rough time these past few months, for you both. The siblings are together again and shining their love down on you. The new ones will not take their place but will fill your hearts with a new love!

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    1. I think we hurt so much, cause we love so much, anyone who has any pets that they hold dear to their hearts knows that...the boys are so quiet today, feeling our sadness no doubt....thanks Joan for your dear note

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  2. I am so sorry...every time someone loses a fur baby I can't help but tear up...I know that empty feeling too well. My heart goes out to you and your family. Hang in there...

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    1. I hear you Crystle...always hard to hold back the tears, cause we know that sorrow too well..x

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  3. My dear Samm, I just send you a warm hug! Your words touched my heart and I hope all these memories will soften the loss and turn into precious gifts every day. It is so hard to say good bye.....
    Be blessed and embraced, Martina

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    1. Hi Martina....we felt your hug through your thoughtful note...the first few days are the hardest cause we just cannot believe she will not be waking up one more morning...

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  4. Oh mamma mia che dolore! come vi capisco, anche il mio Charlye un anno e mezzo fa se n'è andato e il dolore è stato immenso anche se aveva quasi 20 anni e per un gatto persiano sono parecchi...mentre penso a voi con tristezza cercando però di pensare anche ai bei ricordi dei momenti passati insieme, come avete scritto anche voi, grandi lacrime solcano il mio viso.....lo so, forse qualcuno lo troverà esagerato e non capirà, ma io vi sono tanto vicina e non potete immaginare quanto mi dispiaccia.
    Un abbraccio,
    Laura

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    1. Oh my what a pain ! as I understand , also my Charlye a year and a half ago is gone and the pain was immense although he was almost 20 years old and a Persian cat are several ... as I think of you with sadness , however, trying to think even the good memories of the times we had together , as you have written you, great tears furrow my face ..... I know, maybe someone will find it overdone and will not understand , but I am so close and you can not imagine how much I mind .
      A hug,
      Laura

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    2. Hello Laura, I don't think it matters if it is one month, one year, 10 or 20....the moment you open your heart to these creatures of delight, they manage to get to your heart and stay...we are sad today, and will be for awhile and like our Sumatra, we will soon be smiling at the memories they leave behind...and my oh my did T-cup fill up our minds with wonderful moments....thank you for your sweet note...touched by a heart from someone who has one too..

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    3. Ciao, T - Cup, sei bellissima, voglio pensare tu sia sul ponte dell'arcobaleno con il mio Charlye....
      laura

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  5. Hola amigo, siento mucho la mala noticia, con lágrimas en los ojos en saber que tuvo un hermoso hogar, lleno de amor y cariño, no podía ser mas feliz si lo tenia todo, un calor de Hogar, tenacidad y paciencia, sus recuerdos siempre vivirán.

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    1. Hello friend, much I feel the bad news , with tears in his eyes to know she had a beautiful home , full of love and affection , could not be happier if I had it all , a warmth of home , tenacity and patience , your memories forever They will live .

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    2. You are kind, and yes her home with us was filled so much love and devotion, we often laughed she would never leave as she had such a wonderful life with us...We treasured her...x and already miss her so much....thank you for your lovely note.

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  6. I hate the fact of you loosing another family member. It's so hard to say good bye. Here's hoping you will fill your days with fond loving memories of T Cup. Sending lots of hugs for support.

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    1. we thought that too but then we were reminded of how much Sumatra was alone....now I suppose the company of each other will help us a little and help them a lot...if only we could keep them forever....but in our hearts I suppose they will be...

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  7. My deepest sympathy for you and your family. T-Cup stayed long enough to assure the Riot Boys knew how live in such a loving home. May your memories always bring you comfort. Hugs and Healing Energy Dear...

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    1. it has been a rough few days...as much as we were prepared, the sadness took over this am....out of love we said goodbye, xx

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  8. Oh I am so sorry! So close to your Sumatra she is gone too!Just be strong and remember her always.AriadnefromGreece!

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    1. we will we will....today is so hard, but we know with losing Sumatra in October...we moved forward... we will again...the price we pay for loving and caring for pets....we would do it all over again...as there were far more happy days than a few sad ones...x

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  9. I am so sorry .. my thoughts are with you ... send you a warm hug
    Blessings
    Marion

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    1. thank you Marion, you are so kind x

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  10. I am sorry to read this..our non human companions are so important to us and their loss is difficult.Think of you.

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    1. thank you Lesley, those who know as you do, feel the pain all over again x

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  11. 16 years is a long time. She was and still is a beautiful lady.
    Rest in peace, T-Cuppie ♥️

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    1. Oh Rosemary, she was....16 years of amazing flourishing memories...her light will never go out in our eyes...

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  12. It is always so soon isn't it ? but your girls are together again. I feel your loss losing two beautiful little souls so close together, I know how that feels... but I am sure your sweet girl taught those little boy rascals so much in a short time. Beautiful times and photo's to treasure .xxxmaria

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    1. Hello Maria...oh yes we were just talking about 16 years of her life....she packed so much into it and we were there to relish almost every moment. That is what she taught us...to enjoy all those moments together and she did teach the boys something....Just a couple of weeks ago, in all of her 16 yrs, she never jumped on our counters....lol.. we laughed about that today as we are breaking the boys from that..

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  13. Sending hugs and love. So sorry to hear of your loss.

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  14. I am wiping the tears from my eyes. My Sherlock and Zoe will meet you Over Rainbow Bridge....

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    1. hi gracie...that is nice to know she will have company...I sense she knew that ...x

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  15. She was a lovely a beautiful cat. I understand that you miss her.

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    1. Hello sweet Britt-Inger....and yes we will miss her for quite awhile...hard to erase or for that matter forget 16 years of daily moments xx

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  16. Awww Samm, this is one e-mail I was so sad to receive and will take comfort in the knowledge that those handsome riot boys will shower you and David with lots of kisses and head butts, to take some of the sadness away, hopefully. Hugs to you both.

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    1. HI Sylvia...the boys are helping, there is no doubt there...they are quiet because we are but we are all together... and we would not have it any other way...T-cup and Sumatra are still in our hearts...

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  17. Oh my dear Samm. There are no words that can express what I wish I could say, so please know in your heart what I feel in mine for you and David.... bless you. xoxo.

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    1. HI Wendy....thank you ...and I saw your funny link about cat mail....can't say any of our sweet ones would do something like that...but it certainly brought such comfort you were thinking of us all x

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  18. Crossing the rainbow bridge will be a beautiful adventure with all of our beloved pets there to greet her. Your life was so much more richer with her in it. My sorrow is for you and David - seems the deeper the love, the deeper the grief. Hugs to you Judy C

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    1. I did say that Judy, to David today, they all be better waiting for us when we go....it is what holds us up for the moment...knowing they are together and we will in the future be family again.... we so loved our pets...x

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  19. Oh Samm.... My heart breaks for you and David. Dear sweet T-cup. There are no words that can take the pain away from losing a much loved fur baby... Hug the riot boys and each other. I hope that the memories of your beautiful girl give you some comfort. It is always too soon to lose them.....
    I will be thinking of you....
    Hugs xxx

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    1. HI Noni....we have been hugging them plenty and we did that with t-cup too. There is no doubt in our minds she knew - how deep our love was for her....after all, how do you say goodbye to nose kisses, and purrs that could have waken us up from a coma xxx She was soooooo loved.. and she will be sooooooo missed.

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  20. I could not believe it when I first started reading this, I'm sorry for the hurt you and Dave are suffering from loosing T-cup. Prayers for healing hearts are coming your way.

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    1. HI Tonia...it is hard to believe even now....but the only thing helping at the moment is caring notes like yours and others...we are in the company of great people...David just said thank you...!

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  21. Dear Samm I am so sorry for your loss. You and David are such special fur-parents-T-cup was was blessed to be with you. I hope you find comfort in knowing that she is with Sumatra on the other side. Hugs to you both.

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    1. Ev, we were so lucky to have her...from the moment we laid eyes on her, we loved her completely. She was such a large Main Coon, to see her shrinking was really tough on all of us. You hate to see anyone suffer, and cats hide it so well.... she was a pro....xx

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  22. Ohhh Samm, I am so sorry. I don't know what else to say except I understand all too well.:(

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    1. HI Sue, mornings are hard, not to have her here this morning at our morning feedings... x

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  23. Madame Samm and David I'm so very sorry to hear the sad news about your beloved T-Cup. It's always so very hard to lose a loved one whether that loved one had two legs or four. You now have another angel watching over both of you. Hugs

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    1. HI Jan, we have had losses and know from the past we always get through them but losing pets seems so much harder, we do so much with them...

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  24. So sorry to hear about T- Cup. Both you and the Riot boys will miss her so. Hug and Love to you both from across the miles.

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    1. HI Karen, oh the boys already miss her....it will be sad around her for awhile..thanks for caring..x

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  25. I'm so sorry. Our fur friends bring so much to our lives and are so missed when they depart. Hugs to you.

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  26. So eloquent you are in saying goodbye. I know that pain is behind the lovely pictures and words and yet I sense peace. Thank you for helping us be a part of your pain as well as your joy in T-cup's life. Know that I am thinking of you both and I pray that joy will come again as you start a new adventure with your riot boys. You are loved. K-

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    1. We have loss so much , I guess the heart takes over when trying to put it to words...no match the emptiness in our hearts this am ..x

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  27. It is hard to read your post without remembering all those pets that have warmed our hearts over the past 52 years. No matter how long ago, they hold a special place in your heart. Your new gang will be reminders of those gone before but also new adventures that have begun.
    Hugs to the whole clan.

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    1. Hi Julie, anyone who is a keeper of pets knows the heartache but also the amazing joy they bring to our lives for years upon years of activities... we have so many memories of our sweet T-cup...our home is certainly missing her this day..

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  28. I am sorry you have to feel the pain again, so soon after Sumatra! Sending you big hugs and healing thoughts.

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    1. Hi Geta...seems we are not even over Sumatra, I know....sadly the pain seems magnified this day...x

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  29. I'm sorry about T-Cup.
    She was a beautiful kitty, and lived a long life!
    You both loved her so, and she loved you back.
    Now she's with Sumatra again.
    Sending you big hugs.
    (((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))
    Take care.
    Marilyn

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    1. That we are grateful for Marilyn, we felt we got a few years more out of her than we expected, she was like an extended warranty ...she gave us so much extra xxx

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  30. Oh I'm so very sorry for her passing but she had a wonderful long life with you her human parents. I'm glad that you have your riot boys to help ease the pain. Big hugs.

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    1. HI Michele. there is no doubt if she could tell you, she had a wonderful life....no doubt a big reason why she stayed as long as she did....many times we could have loss her , she had bronchitis every year and still she managed to get through one more winter.... gosh I miss her this morning x

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  31. I feel so sad for you, I'm saying a prayer tonight that my beautiful sister will take T-bar under her wing in heaven with all our much loved pets and of course Sumatra. love and hugs to you Samm and David

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    1. Thank you Cass, it was hard getting up this morning...our ritual is altered our day less full, but we know about losing, is we get through this day and the next.xx

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  32. In reading through all these comments and your responses, you give support and love to others even when you heart is broken. So much love to you all.

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    1. HI Corrie, sadness has visited our home but there also has been so much joy...and that joy will replace our sadness.... I say it again, " we would do it all over again".... thank you for your kindness...

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  33. So sorry! They give us such love and it's so hard to let them go.

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    1. Sweet Lady, so true, it is from an act of love and devotion that we have to let them go....
      yesterday our hearts were heavy with despair...we know from the past, we will move on...today it is just baby steps..

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  34. So sorry for the loss of T-cup. It is so hard to lose a pet that bring so much love to our lives.

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    1. Hello sweet lady, so true, what helps is we loved her so much and she knew that....right till the very end.

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  35. Oh, Samm, I'm really sorry for your loss of T-cup. This has been a tough year for you to lose both those beautiful babies. Hugs and love to you and David.

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    1. Yes Carol, this past few months have been very sad, both Sumatra and T-cup were such gems who sparkle is now only in our hearts.....

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  36. So sorry for your loss. We have three felines and they are so bound to each other, I don't know what they'd do if we lost one. We nearly lost our grey tabby with the white tuxedo to a liver infection several years ago, but he got through it and is still with us. Both my husband and I are so attached to our furry friends, if one would go, it would be difficult for all of us, including the cats!
    Rosemary

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    1. HI Rosemary...it is true, they pine for each other when one is absent or sick....the riot boys have been looking for her all day..they are so quiet...you do get through it one day at a time...we are learning that..

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  37. so sorry for your loss. I know what it's like to loss our loved ones, sitting up through the night until the vet's office opens to see if anything can be done. My Cocker Spaniel has been battling cancer for several years and I hate to think of the day her body succumbs. I'm thankful for every day we have with her and that she's doing as well as she is. The vets are amazed she's still with us. May God comfort your soul as you go through the hardest part of grieving. It gets better but you never really get over it but the bittersweet memories will become sooo cherished in years to come.

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    1. when our pets are ill, we feel for them every day, I know we bargained for both Sumatra and T-cup and no amount of love could keep them here another day. We are so pleased though we enjoyed every moment with them....best to your Cocker....it is love that keeps them with us during those sad times....

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  38. Ohh.. my dear Samm !!I`m so sorry! I cry.
    Goodbye beautiful T-cup! Sweety cat.

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    1. HI Alain, we cried a lot too...I think she took all the love we all had for her with her....I just know it!

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  39. HI Alain, we cried a lot too...I think she took all the love we all had for her with her....I just know it!

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  40. Prayers and hugs, with tears in my eyes. I realize your sadness. You do have a lot of lovely memories. My thoughts for your both.

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    1. It has been a very sad weekend and no doubt a hard adjustment from losing our sweet T-cup....16 years packed many memories....x

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  41. Oh my heart hurts right now, I can only imagine how you and David are handling this~ I just became so attached to your furry family through their beautiful personalities captured through your photos. I have never been a cat lover as you know until I met T cup & Sumatra. I hope they are playing and smiling together now...our prayers are with you both.
    Huggs, & much Love, Nancy

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    1. Thank you Nancy, we thought of them together all weekend...T-cup was never the same after Sumatra passed...we hope they are together in a place where love still surrounds them forever..

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  42. Oh Samm, so sad news... T-cup had a lovely life with you, she was loved, so I believe she was happy.
    Hugs and love for you...

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    1. HI Olga...oh she had such a pampered life, there was nothing she needed that was not a daily dose of love..thank you for your sweet note..it helps a great deal

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  43. Dear Samm, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Loosing one of your beloved cats is so hard. You did the right thing for her to stop the suffering and pain, but your hart is broken. Your story about T-cup made me cry, I know how it feels when a feline familymember has left your family. During 16 years she and Sumatra were such a part of your daily live, they will be in your hart for ever. The boys can comfort you and David but the time has to do her job. I read somewhere that people mourn ther pets 8 months, so take all the time you need. Hug and strength, Nienke

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    1. Hello sweet Nienke...and yes it will take awhile to get over this loss, too close to Sumatra'....our home feels different...The boys feel it too, but we will pick ourselves up and continue pouring love and joy into our life..thanks for adding so much to it today...

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  44. I don't know what to say, I didn't know she was failing in health. I am so shocked, and so so sad for you, for David, for TCup. Bless your hearts, y'all have been through so much in the past few months. Sending hugs and shedding tears for your sadness. I am so happy you have the Riot Boys to help get you through this.

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    1. We kept quiet for the past few weeks, not saying much maybe because we were hoping she would pull through....our hearts are all heavy...xx

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  45. I am so sorry but at least you have the Riot Boys to keep you spirits up. Hugs, Susie x

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    1. and we are all trying to keep our spirits up ...thanks Susie

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  46. Oh Samm, I'm so sorry about T-Cup. I've been so bad about reading blogs lately that I didn't even know she was sick. My heart breaks for you as it hasn't been so very long that you went through this. Thank goodness that Sumatra was waiting at the bridge with paw raised when T-Cup crossed over. "Hey!! I've missed you so! I'm soooo glad to see you, friend." Love you. xoxo

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    1. We were trying to keep it quiet and wishful thinking perhaps, that this too shall pass....
      but I love your thought that Sumatra would be waiting for her....xx

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  47. What a heart breaking post, but also such a sweet expression of love. T-cup stole our hearts from miles away as we so enjoyed seeing her personality shine in the pictures you took of her. She was a beautiful girl, and we will miss her so very much. Through tears we send our love to you. What a wonderful span of time you have spent with her. So many memories I am sure. She will never be forgotten, but remembered fondly always. So sorry my sweet friend, what a hard road as you have lost both your girls so close together. Our prayers and thoughts will be of you and David these next few days as you grieve for her. May your hearts be focused on her funny antics and all the great times you had together.xxx

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    1. There is no doubt about it Cori, we love deeply and our pets love us the same...for years I have shown our cats, so many knew them , both so different and yet both so much heart...hard not to love them....we will never forget our girls....and funny to think now we have boys....thank you for your sharing of your heartx

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  48. Dear Mdm Samm,
    I am so sad reading this lines. I know your feelings by self-experience and it is hard. It will be hard for days, weeks and months. But you are so right - now there is a couple of lovely cats together watching at you and your family and two cats trying to give you some fun every day.
    Xoxo from Germany, Rike

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    1. HI Rike, I worry more about my sweet husband, he loved T-cup. they were so bonded....
      we have not even gotten over losing Sumatra....it brought back such sadness these past few days, but we have these boys who need us too..and they try very hard to keep us loved...

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  49. Dearest Samm, I just read about T-cup. I'm so sorry to hear your heart is broken again and so soon after Sumatra crossed the rainbow bridge. They are playing together again...pain free. Both gave you so much love and received love so deeply they will be forever in your hearts. Cherish all the fun memories...hoping they will bring smiles to you and David. Time will heal your broken hearts but you will never forget the love you shared with T-cup...and Sumatra. xoxo

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    1. HI Pauline, she had been slipping for a few weeks, we just kept hoping she would come through...it was the most difficult decision to let her go, the days since have slowed so much...we will cherish all the memories...there were so many...x

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  50. I'm so sorry! How sad to lose both this year. I'm glad you have two new babies to raise that will help you through these loses. My heart goes out to you!

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    1. It has been hard Linda...two so close, so many years with us....gone...does not seem right just yet....x

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  51. Samm, I remember last year when you wrote that T-cup was getting old, just after I had to let our 19-year old Tizio go.... Yes, it is hard, but it is the right thing to let them go, because you know it is time and accompany the pet to its last steps. And this is love as well.
    T-cup was here to welcome your 2 riot boys (which are getting bigger and bigger) and that was her last job to do, I think.
    I prepared some magazines for you, and will send them tomorrow when I go to work..... hugs
    Judy

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    1. Yes Judy, we really believe we had at least 3 extra years with her....winters were rough for her, each year we were pleased she was still here...but to love and let go is our last act of loyalty and respect for her....and we do think she stuck around long enough for the boys to at home here...she certainly made them feel very welcome....they have been out of sorts, looking for her every day.... Thank you for thinking of me...it will be a nice surprise....xx

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  52. Sending you both hugs, Christine xxx

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    1. Thank you Christine....we are picking ourselves up everyday because of people like you . x

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    1. it has been hard to let her go and even harder to ever forget her xx

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  54. A bit late to comment, I have been hit and miss on the internet this month...so sorry Samm. Your kitty ladies have been a sweet part of our lives too, thank you for sharing them with us.

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  55. thanks Kris...I know, they have always been part of my blogging life, splattered through the pages for years...T-cup was not for the camera, seldom did she embrace it....she was funny that way...very private in so many ways...our home is different without her here..She did not meow, lost her voice when she was little...she would squeak, we miss that, we miss so much of her, we can see her everywhere... she will always fill the walls of our heart...they all do, don't they?

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