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Sunday, October 11, 2015

A long SAD- BYE.....THIS THANKSGIVING WEEKEND

Oct 8th, we said .....


I knew in my heart we were having a LONG GOOD SADBYE ....
and yet every day I just prayed for one more hour, one more day ....

I did not think I could even write about her or share our loss with you ...
but I can not sleep, nor stop the tears. 


From past losses I know what has always helped me through-was to embrace
the loss, embrace the memories and embrace TIME that I know will heal
my heart as well as Davids. 

Since July when she first got an eye infection, and then dental cleaning, which led to extractions, which led to a UTI, which led to steroids, antibiotics, allergies, abscess, surgery, more 
antibiotics, many IV flushes, what occurred today was her eye started swelling per hour ..

With everything she had been through, whatever was attacking her could not 
be cured my meds ... not even our tender loving care was enough ....

We said goodbye this afternoon and not a dry eye was seen at our local vets office ...


We were both so lucky she chose us as her parent keepers, because we loved that role.
Even when she was recovering from her surgery, (2nd one in weeks) we both
slept on our loungers for 4 days, 24/7 and never once did I begrudge a second
of loving and caring for her to her death.

We were so connected on so many levels ... She loved my sewing studio.
Whatever I was working on, she was interested in ....

She so loved my camera and my camera loved her ...

It never failed, whenever I be sitting at my sewing machine she would be on the other side ..



I love this photo, she was actually smiling at me ... her eyes were closed and she was smiling ....
She knew how to make my heart smile every day of her eight years that she gave us ...

I was getting ready to wash the floors in my bathroom and just as I was reaching for the bucket
she jumped in and wanted to play ...


David and I both shed many tears this evening, and then we would laugh at how many thousands of 
photos I took of her and we knew never would she be far from our hearts or memories ..

NEVER ....

Her eyes were so blue, you could fall into them and her passion for both of us 
was always so evident .... She loved us as much as we loved her ...

She had such a great profile ...


She loved playing peek a boo with me ... Whenever I was taking any photos for 
a project, she just had to be in the shot .... This one is even more tender sweet ...
Judy was given this doll as she loved it so much .... I just said goodbye to her
last Monday .... She loved Sumatra, always said Sumatra was her adopted cat ..
I am sure they are keeping each other company ... or at least I would like to think that ...

Every morning as I ate breakfast at my table. Sumatra would jump up on the window
bench so we could see eye to eye ... I see snapshots of her everywhere in our home ....
and a place she will live forever -will be in our hearts ....

I always appreciate the teachings of our furry friends ...
Enjoy every moment they bless us, we are reminded they too have expiry dates ...
I just wish hers was just a little longer ...

Sweet dreams my Sumatra ....
I will miss you ALWAYS.


She was mesmerized by this weed coming through our slabs..I think she sat there 
for about 10 minutes ... she would keep looking up at me .... "what is this"?


David called her my velcro feline ... she followed me like dog, she cried
when she did not know where I was ....
WE were like velcro ... always sticking together! 



One of her fav places ... whom am I kidding, every place was her favourite place
if I was in the same room ...



 I will always treasure this photo of my Man and Sumatra ...
she loved him so much..not as much as she loved me of course ..
but they had such a sweet connection!



xo

THE NEXT DAY .....

It is Friday, neither one of us slept last night..and T-cup kept looking for Sumatra ... I was afraid to go to sleep because I was afraid to wake up and not have her jumping on the bed from her tower, whining where "is my breakfast?" ..... Thank you for all your sweet notes ... it certainly lifted my heart up a bit this morning in between the tears that still stain my cheek.

As we have known for a couple weeks, Sumatra was not getting better, we had sent out a couple requests from well known breeders and put our name in for a another ragdoll. Just this week a litter was born to this Mom and Daddy ... Mom is a blue lynx point and Daddy is now I forget but you can see combined their babies must be beautiful. They are only days They They old, so we chose a boy and he will be ready to come home to us by Christmas.

We both agreed, we could not possibly have another seal mitted which Sumatra was .... but we still wanted a ragdoll. We even have a named picked out, and I am sure A BOY will carry it off well.

When we first ordered Sumatra, it took almost a year to get her. We feel this was a good sign
that a litter was born just days ago ...

Sumatra will always live in our hearts and although both our hearts are so broken, we know we have so much love to pour into yet another Furry friend. Our wee fellow better love a camera, because you can be assured, I will be sharing him with you all.

Thank you for your kindness, you certainly have lifted us from such depths xx

T-cup is sleeping by my side at the moment, each time I reach for a tissue, she licks my hand ...



This is T-cup ... she does not like the camera half as much as Sumatra did ..
She is main coon, and is here on my lap ... I think we are both consoling one another ..
She is 16 years old. Never did we think she would outlive her sweet sister ....
xx

And the day after that ..

FIRST allow me to thank you all for your tender sweet notes, in stage one of grieving
beyond the sharing, hearing from you all has helped so much ..
Of course both David and I keep shedding tears, it is so difficult with so many 
reminders in our home. It can be a blessing but also a curse ...

You want to remember everything but it all gives you heart ache at the memories.

But today was better getting up this morning. I actually called my doctor yesterday, something 
I rarely do. I got in within an hour appt, the niceties of a small friendly town.
I thought I was depressed, because I could not eat or sleep.
She was so tender sweet and said "Samm you are just grieving for a love of your life"
: All you need is a couple sleeping aids for only 5 nights ... "
She is well aware I am from Pharmaceutical and I smiled ....: If I was depressed
5 will not kill me ".... that is Pharma humour .... we both smiled between the tears ..
She so understood, anyone who has the amazing role of caring for any pet
knows how deep the love and hurt is ... 

David picked up the prescription on his way, glad I reached out, again
he is well aware I do not go to doctors for any reason ....

Neither one of us very hungry, so we had fresh pumpkin pie ...
That was all. Seemed years ago when we said goodbye to our bichon frise, Duvet
we ate apple pie for a few days ... PIE seems to be our food when we are heart broken.

WE talked all evening about Sumatra and how we will miss her personality.
She was an actress in every way, always posing, always chatting in her various
cries ... she was so smart too, she played fetch, she understand french and she was my 
velcro ...

David hinted the other day we should get 2 ragdolls more, with T-cup it would
be a handful, however T-cup is 16 years old that would mean we would have a
small kitten all alone ... so I left a note for our breeder and we will see if we
can make that possible ... Almost nervous looking after a set of twins all over again ...
Although kitten twins vs real babies twins, is a tad easier ..

So we may have lots of pitter patter of little feet soon enough ...
Today we are canning apple pie filling. 
We are picking up a bushel of spies ... I have all my refined cornstarch and acids
so that will keep us both busy all day ..

Not saying there will be no more tears, but already that are just fewer of them ..
Time as I mentioned is our GREATEST healer ...

Thank you all from our tender heart- for helping us both though this loss! 


And the day after that (It is Thanksgiving Sunday here)

I am thankful for many things today .... We both slept better so that we are thankful for ..
When there is lack of sleep, you can not work at your optimum ...

We are still out of sorts, but we are trying to have some kind of routine ...
We never did get our canning done yesterday, so that was on our schedule for today ...
Together, we put on some of our favourite itunes and we started peeling and chopping.

We have canned 14 quarts of apple pie filling already. They are just ready now for
their bath ... 25 minutes should do it ... David has gone for a spin.
Our Thanksgiving has brought a brilliance in our beautiful yard.
T-cup and I are settled on our lounger as I write you.

We certainly are missing Sumatra especially today,
T-cup kept getting up last night, she was looking for Sumatra,
cried out a few times .... it was heart breaking. They both would take turns
in the evening to go mouse hunting in our basement.

Funny the things you remember. We had breakfast on the deck this morning
and David and I had to stop ourselves from calling out her name. She would always
go under a floral bush where we fed the bluejays their peanuts, and they would not
come around when she was there ... today they were squawking, I actually went down
the stairs to see if she was there .... mmmmmmm

 We still shed tears when we realize in the evening when we watch the news
our family would gather together and we all would sit on the loungers and take notes ...
These past couple of nights has had T-cup sitting between us ....

She was so much part of every moment of my day .... I am thankful David
is home till Tuesday ... it is helping so much for us to talk and hold each other
in embrace and show T-cup how much we so tenderly love her too !.

All of your tender sweet notes have helped more than you know ....
We are both thankful for that ...

YOU all so Matter to all of us ....
THANK YOU!

I will miss sharing my tea in the mornings with her .... xx

188 comments:

  1. I am so sorry. She was a beautiful girl. Happy to hear she brought you so much joy.

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    1. It would take many posts to describe the joy she brought to our hearts and home xx

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  2. I am very sorry for your loss. I know you will miss Sumatra a lot, she was an important part of your life. I lost my cat a year ago, he got to be 16 years old, and sometimes I can still imagine that he will come in through the door and greet us and purr madly. Our cats will be with us forever, even though they are gone.

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    1. Hello Anita, ahhh I know that feeling all to well. It has only been 28 hours, and I see her in mind everywhere....x

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  3. Oh Samm,
    I sit here with tears in my eyes as I read this. I am so, so sorry! I know how much you and David loved Sumatra and how much she loved you. Our furry friends are truly such huge parts of our families...May you feel comfort in knowing that she is full and whole and free of pain now. Sending you love and hugs, sweet friend.xoxo

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    1. HI Carolyn, it is hard not to cry ....we loved her so much, my heart is so broken...xxx

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  4. My Gracie was a seal point ragdoll. I had to have her put down last September, she had some sort of bowel cancer and watching her struggle was heartbreaking. She was my constant companion, definitely my closest confident of the feline kind. I felt like i was losing her all over again in reading your goodbye to Sumatra. My condolences.

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    1. HI Melissa....Sumatra was the same mitted...they are such lovely breed, you know...sad to hear yours had cancer....it is never easy to say goodbye x

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  5. Samm, what a beautiful post. I am so sorry her little body wouldn't let her stay longer with you. It seems such a short time, only 8 years, but I know you put enough love in those years to last several lifetimes! What an amazing pet parent you were to her, and I know she will be sticking around in spirit. I don't think we can ever be prepared to say goodbye to a loved one. Sumatra will always be with you, because she holds such a generous spot in your heart. I know no one with a bigger heart than you... and I know it is going to take some time to heal. In the meantime, I am sending all my love to you Samm. xxx

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    1. I am so sorry too...gosh she was such a trooper, such a wonderful personality. You can have another cat, but there will never be another Sumatra....she was so unique, so feisty , so independent...like me....which is why I grieve for her so much...it's like a lost part of me..xx

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  6. I'm so sorry. I said goodbye to my dog friend of 13 years last spring so I understand. How blessed you were to have one another.

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    1. HI Beth. any pet owner knows that emptiness....we are all blessed really ....all those who open their hearts to these little souls are rewarded with a lifetime of happiness and some sadness too...xx

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  7. Samm... You have a story of being together... And it's great... Send my love and hugs to you, my friend...

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    1. Hello sweet Olga...oh yes we had a story...anyone who met us together could feel the bond....xx

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  8. My dear Samm!! I cry with you. I understand you soo much. Its awful.Sumatra was your friend. My regrets.

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    1. Hello sweet Alain, and yes I should be handing out tissues..I think many of our hearts get broken when we hear about a loss of great companion x

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  9. Oh Samm so sad to read this that you have said goodbye to your little fury friend. Thousands of hugs to you from me here in Malmö

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    1. Ahhh and I felt them all sweet lady..truly I did...still very sad but I felt the hugs ...thank youxx

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  10. I'm sooo sorry about this! I grew up with cats since I was born and I can really feel your pain and sadness. She will surely be at your side, although you cannot see her. And maybe, she will choose and send you another little cute cat to be at your side one day - not today or tomorrow or the next week, but someday.
    Send you a big hug!
    Rike

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    1. HI Rike, Ohhh I can see her everywhere, it is a double edge sword, it hurts and it is comforting, ....how I miss her, always will actually, cannot imagine a day where she won't be in my thoughts...xx

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  11. So sad.... no words..... but so wonderful all those memories and photos....
    Just send you a warm hug from over here
    Martina

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    1. HI Martina...I know sweet lady, I know xx

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  12. I am so sorry for having this experience!It breaks my heart to think of the day Barca our dog will have to go!AriadnefromGreece!

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    1. I know Ariadne, I don't think there is anything harder to tell you the truth....our pets are so loved and they reward us with the same back...x

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  13. Oh dear Samm! How horrible for you and your family. You must be devastated. It is such a terrible thing to loose your cat. I am sending you love and hugs and strength. Sumatra has shared her life with you and left a little cattiness on your heart for you to cherish. Lots of love.

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    1. Hello Heleen, it has been terrible, no mistaken, my heart is aching...I don't think I remember hurting so but I also know Time is our healer....I will keep crying till there are no more tears...thank you for your kindness...means so much x

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  14. So sorry dear Mdm Samm. And your lovely husband. May the Lord increase the joy of your sweet memories and wrap you in His arms of care for your pain

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    1. HI Karen....I know ...we feel the hugs and feel comforted just sharing our love for her...xx

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  15. So sad , we always miss our dear pets hugs .

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    1. Only those who have understand sweet lady..x

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  16. I'm so sorry... I know what you're feeling right now... But our pets are always with us, in our hearts. You wrote such a warm memory post... Hang in there

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    1. Thank you my sweet lady...I know she is my heart, when I lay my hand there, I can feel hers beating xxx

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  17. I am so, so sorry to hear about Sumatra.
    She was one gorgeous cat, and so loyal to you both.
    Take care.
    Marilyn

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    1. ahhh Marilyn, she was so devoted but I too was to her....I never knew such love, such heartache, but then again I never met a Sumatra before...it was love at first sight....xx

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  18. Oh Samm, I am so sorry for your loss! Sumatra was a beautiful girl and true friend... Hold on and keep her in your heart!

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    1. Hello sweet Maria....oh there is no doubt she always live in my heart...I will carry her like your wee purses....with tenderness ...x

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  19. I am so sorry dear Samm. Our furry friends are always the sweetest and they live on in our hearts long after they are gone. A gentle hug to you today. Beautiful pictures.

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    1. HI Charlotte...thank you....she was the honey in my tea for sure....we just connected...xx

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  20. So sorry for your loss, such beautiful memories to treasure.

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    1. Thank you Pat, I am so comforted that I loved her with all of my being xx

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  21. Samm, I am so sorry. I have "lost" many a pet. And yet we do it again. Because they love us so very much. They are such gifts from God.

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    1. HI Vickie, oh yes we have to do it again. They are like a magnet, I could not stay away even if I tried. Our new breeder reached out and said she has my back....she will have one ready for us in just a few weeks....I already love him...xx

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  22. Awww Samm, I'm so very sorry. She was such a lovely lady. I've always enjoyed seeing her pictures here.

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    1. HI Dorian, ohhhh pictures, I have thousands, she so loved the camera...a perfect model...x

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  23. Samm, please accept my sincere condolences. My thoughts are with you. I know how it feels to lose a beloving cat that was your closest friend your biggest love... she will be greatly missed but we have to remember every happy minute we had.

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    1. Hi Preeti, thank you sweet lady... she was my breath most days, she kept me going when I thought I could not....she will be missed xx

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  24. Sending lots of hugs. It's never easy to loose a family member.

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    1. Thank you sweet lady ...so hard to admit ....xx

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  25. I'm so very sorry.... I understand the pain of losing a family member. Sumatra was so young, but you filled her life with love and tenderness, just as she did the same for you. Prayers for you and David and you process this terrible loss. RIP Sumatra... you'll be missed by all of us.

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    1. Hi Jeanie, I have no regrets, we spend hours and hours together, even when she was tired, she would give me one more chuckle...she will be missed, oh yes...xx

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  26. So sorry for your loss Samm, what a beauty Sumatra was inside and out.

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    1. HI Kris...yes she had a beauty that could be felt even in a photo...she loved life! xx

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  27. Dear Samm, sending you my hugs and sympathy...

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  28. I am so sorry for your loss! I know how hard it is to lose a furbaby, I'll be praying for you!

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    1. Thank you so much Missy, pray I stop tearing...they just keep falling upon my cheek...it hurts so much....xx

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  29. Samm, so sorry to hear of your loss. I know how special your little friend was to you both. Take care...

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    1. Hi Lesley..you so remember her from way back...I had her so much on my blog..you think she was also writing xx

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  30. Words are not enough to express how I am feeling for you right now.
    If I didn't know better I would have to say that I WROTE THIS POST ABOUT OUR PRECIOUS 'LOLA' whom we lost 2 years ago.
    She was EXACTLY what you say Sumatra was to you and David...exactly - nothing different except her breed but if you would have seen her you would have thought she had some of Sumatra's features.
    My heart hurts for you - I know the pain the anguish and yet you knew you did the right thing. It's never good to keep our fur babies with us just because we love them to pieces.
    Bless you and your husband and I know you will be renewed again with the new baby that will be coming home to you.
    Karen

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    1. HI Karen, yes being her advocate was one of the hardest things I ever did. David was not with me, it happened so fast....He is hurting too, we both are....But I loved her too much to see her in any more pain...and yes a new fur ball will fill our hearts and I am sure I will be ready for him, when he arrives. I am glad we will have another one to build memories with xx

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  31. Oh my gosh I am so sorry and understand completely. We have lost 3 of our girls in the last 2 years, two to old age, and one to cancer. Their are two things that comfort me: that I was honored to be their mommy for all their years, and that one day I will be reunited with them. The pain is something I have to live with but it sure is hard. Thank you for the beautiful post. Sue

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    1. HI Sue, 3 little ones in 2 years sounds crushing...I ordered this book on holistic cat care, after Sumatra got sick, I noted many things that could have been done, but for her it was too late. I will share more when I get it , I think like anything else, we have to be aware of the foods that are our there , drugs to stay away from and question procedures .... and we have to enjoy the memories that makes it possible for us to forgive and carry on Sue...hope you can do that too x

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  32. I'm crying along with you and David. I will
    truly miss seeing Sumatra. I don't remember meeting T'Cup
    But give her(?) a extra pet for me, as she will feel the loss too.
    Praying for all of you
    TLC

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    1. Ahhhhh thank you , I figured we cried enough for all of you..T-cup is low key, really does not like her photo taken, it is rare she doesn't just walk away..but I put one up for you, taken in spring..She is doing well, lot better than we expected. she is enjoying all the fussing an one one... we think she will welcome the entertainment of a new kitten or two xx

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  33. I'm so very, very sorry for your loss Samm. It is so hard to lose a beloved pet. Hugs and warm thoughts to you and David

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    1. Hello Kiera, we felt it ..thank you ....it is already easier today

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  34. My heart is breaking for you and David! The love you feel for a fur baby is that of a child! I'm so sorry for your loss! Many hugs!

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    1. Hello Ellen, psst i think it is more, I really do, our pets require us 100% and if you are of that nature you take that role with pride and conviction. And I am ready to do it all over again...I would never want another child lol...

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  35. Oh, Samm, I'm so sorry for your loss of that sweet baby. It was always so fun to see her in your photos and enjoy her beauty. xo

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    1. Sweet Carol. welllll we will miss her more than any words could convey.I said to David last night, what I will miss most of all, is that are personalities were in such sinc, she was such a great companion....and that she was 1 in a zillion...xxx

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  36. All of you are in my thoughts. I know what Sumatra ment to you. They are part of our family.She will remain forever in your heart. What a sweet tribute to a sweet kitty.

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    1. HI Mary. you knew, we connect on that level. It is better today, they are our family and I can't imagine her every leaving my heart...I can feel her still there xx

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  37. So sorry for your loss! We have been there a few times and it is always hard to say goodbye!

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    1. thank you Lou, goodbyes challenge to reach for all the courage that lays deep in our soul. we had to reach xx

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  38. Мои соболезнования, тяжело терять друга, ставшего уже членом семьи... Пускай новый котенок смягчит горечь утраты.

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    1. My condolences , hard to lose a friend , which has already become a member of the family ... Let the new kitten will soften the bitterness of loss .

      thank you all sweet ladies...xx

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    2. thank you sweet lady, I think we will be ready by Christmas to welcome our new kitten or two....there is enough room in my heart for more.

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  39. I'm so sorry for your loss Mdm Samm!!! We lost our Gypsy last year after 18 wonderful years together - I know how heartbreaking it is to lose our babies. I will keep you in my thoughts these next weeks as your heart travels the long process of grieving. It is wonderful that you have T-cup to help you through, and thoughts of a new baby are always healing! Looking forward to meeting the beautiful new little one.

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    1. Hello Teresa, again, those who have losses so understand, it is what unites us actually. And to never experience another loss again is robbing us from years of pure joy....I can handle more JOY so we will do this again. WE will grieve for as long as we have to, but already this morning my heart did not hurt as much at the thought of getting up without her...x

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  40. Ahhh my heart aches for you! My thoughts are with you and your husband!

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    1. Thank you Paulette, that is so sweet of you...we are all aching if we have known that kind of love

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  41. So sorry to hear about poor little baby; we are so lucky and blessed having these little souls in our lives! It's great that you have 8 years of sweet memories. Hugs to you. Sorry to hear about Judy too.

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    1. Hello Sweet Geta, yes 8 years seemed a lot longer as we did so much together...Judy loved her so it would make me happy at just the thought they may see each other..xx

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  42. Samm, so sorry for your loss.....our pets are definitely a part of our family and when they pass it is so hard .......

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    1. Kathleen, I don;t think anyone could have prepared us, we are so loss without her, loving like this has it rewards xx

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  43. I'm sending you air hugs from Walla Walla, and crying in sympathy. It was wonderful getting to know Sumatra through your beautiful photographs of her, and I always looked forward to seeing her or catching a glimpse of Tea Cup during your hops. Obviously, she will be missed by all of us as well, she really made an impact on many lives it looks like, from all the comments I see. I do look forward to meeting the new little man at Christmas. I'll be thinking happy thoughts for you today!
    ~Brandy

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    1. Hello Brandy, any who followed by blog would have caught glimspes of her...she enjoyed our photo shoots so much, some shots I did not want her in, but she would not have it...she knew it brought me pleasure so she played along...that I will miss forever and a day...a little man or two for Christmas will be joyful...x

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  44. So sorry for your loss. The furry members of our families are such a treasure, they love us rain or shine with such pure love.

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    1. thank you sweet lady...they are all that and more...you must know that pleasure too.xx

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  45. I am so so sorry. Crying as I write because I have lost fur babies too. Brings back all the feelings......A new baby will help heal, bring smiles. Hugs to you and David.

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    1. Oh Mary Ann it is hard when it brings up so many memories of our loved ones...they bring joy and sadness, but much more JOY and that is what I will welcome soon again xx

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  46. My heart goes out to you. So sorry! I lost my sweet sheltie three months ago so I completely understand your pain. Thinking of you and your family.

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    1. hello Joan , sad to hear you had to go down this lonely path...I hope your days are better, have you thought of a never pet? xx

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  47. I'm so sorry, Samm. She was so beautiful. I remember, how special she was for you <3

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    1. ahhh Gosia....she ws that and more, and it was wonderful to share so many photos of her with you...she was and will always be part of our family..

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  48. I am so very very sorry. I am really at a loss for words, but I am here for you.

    -Soma

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    1. thank you so much Soma, I know that and that is so comforting xx

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  49. I am praying for both of you.
    I know this pain. You must walk around this dark sad hole in your life, grieve for this loss.
    It is hardest hurt to your hearts. I know it.
    Keep life simple.
    We are so fortunate to have so many photos of our amazing babies. They were the ones that
    took us from one part of life to the next. Caesar and Prin (you know, my olden blog) lived 17 and 18 years.
    Sumatra had the best momma and dad ever.
    I will be holding both of you in my heart, and praying fervently for courage

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    1. My sweet Rosemary Bhere, you know all too well the hurt and sadness...these felines , all so different, all so gifted, present us with sides of us that are so endearing. WE are allowing our heart and tears to keep falling. I remember telling a sweet friend not so long ago. "If we did not love so much, our hearts would not be so broken...." I don't think I could have loved her more...she had all of me....and that is what I left her with...a lot of my heart when with her with all the memories of our yesterdays ..x

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  50. Samm, I can only imagine the pain you are both going through, and pray that time flies by quickly so you will soon have little cat feet running around your house and brightening your day once again. I love the Ragdolls, and if we were to get a pet, that's what I would want. They are so beautiful and a good size, as is your Main Coon. I have thoroughly enjoyed all the pictures you post featuring your cats, and she was so photogenic. We will all look forward to the time when you will once again be sharing photos of the new King of the House. lv2bquilting2@comcast.net

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    1. Hello sweet Sylvia, yes that pain is sharp, sometimes takes my breath away...Ragdolls, they are hard to explain, it is like they are given part of your personality when they are born, at least for me that is how I see it...I am much of a loner, very introverted, although many would disagree there lol. I am friendly and nice but love my own company. Sumatra was exactly like me...we liked our together time but also relished our independence. We knew that about each other.....
      Funny as I read this. she would be smiling you know..because she left on her terms...that will be too.....Although at the moment we have plans for possibly 2 new KINGs...we are still mellowing that one..but for sure 1 will be here in just a few weeks..thank you xx

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  51. Hugs, I'm so sorry for your loss. As I sit here in tears I'm remembering so many posts and pictures of her. Sending you lots of hugs to share with David and T-cup

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  52. I have no words, Samm - there is also a very big sadness in my heart for sweet Sumatra, for you and for David. My Brady and Casey are waiting across the rainbow bridge.

    Poem For Cats

    And God asked the feline spirit
    Are you ready to come home?
    Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
    And, as a cat, you know I am most able
    To decide anything for myself.

    Are you coming then? asked God.
    Soon, replied the whiskered angel
    But I must come slowly
    For my human friends are troubled
    For you see, they need me, quite certainly.

    But don't they understand? Asked God
    That you'll never leave them?
    That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
    That nothing is created or destroyed?
    It just is....forever and ever and ever.

    Eventually they will understand,
    Replied the glorious cat
    For I will whisper into their hearts
    That I am always with them
    I just am....forever and ever and ever.
    Author Unknown


    The Rainbow Bridge

    Just this side of Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing: they each miss someone very special, someone who was left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; his eager body begins to quiver. Suddenly, he breaks from the group, flying over the green grass, faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into those trusting eyes, so long gone from your life, but never absent from your heart.
    Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together...

    *Author Unknown*

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    1. Ohhh Judy this was so tender sweet....I read it between tears to David and we certainly would love to imagine this being possible.. That we will meet again. How could GOD not want his people to be with their pets that they cared so much for ... After all I have said many times our pets are gifts from God for all the goodness we have done for the world....It is easy when you love something to love again....this really helped, thank you for sharing it with me and all those who have lossed a pet..you are so gentle ...x

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  53. Oh Samm I am so sorry to here this so very sad news. I know how painful this loss is and I know that her memory will be with you forever. The memories become less painful with time, easy for me to say but hard to live through. So glad you have found another fluffy kitty to share your home and all of the love that is there to share.

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    1. Oh Selina, I remember when you lost your pets....it is always painful, breaks your heart that we cannot keep them forever...but I do know even after losing our Duvet, bichon 9 years ago, we still remember so many of his antics...he brought such joy to our lives...as Sumatra did and T-cup does and some new ones who are already born will fill our hearts ...it is why we will do this all over again. congrats on your new pitter patter of heavier feet lol.. xx

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  54. Oh my goodness, such sad, sad news. Samm you and David will always have the happy memories of your dear, sweet, beautiful Sumatra ... nobody can ever that that away from you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and David.

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    1. HI Jan, thank you for your note and prayers, they really help every day...today is a tad better lol

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  55. I am so sorry to read about your lovely furbaby going to play across the rainbow bridge. May all your memories of her ease the pain of loss. They become so much like four footed children in our lives. They love us unconditionally. Sending up a prayer for both your shattered hearts.

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    1. Hello Wendy, the love between pet keepers and their pets is difficult to calculate or measure...but the total rewards of every breath and antics they share with you is worth all the tears of a goodbye. xx

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  56. When you helped me so much the other day you talked about how special Sumarta was to you and David. It just made me smile all day. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. And may your new little one bring you as much happiness when you get him.

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    1. Hello Glenda...ahhh sweet lady, we have just too much love in our hearts not to share with yet another or two...I know we will be laughing again, and our hearts will heal....xx

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  57. Hugs to you both...I know how hard it is to lose such a sweet fur baby.

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    1. Thank you Amy....you are such a kind lady ...x

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  58. I am so very sorry for your loss of Sumatra. She was beautiful and sweet. I do know the deep heartache of losing a furchild as my beloved Sasha BooBoo Abyssinian was with us 18 years and the bond was beyond strong. I still miss her everyday. May your memories keep you smiling...

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    1. Hello Sherry, you so know that loss, anyone who has had to say goodbye to a loved one, knows a part of them goes with them..I bet you miss them everyday, how could you not...did you ever get more pets...we are trying to smile..not sooo yet xx

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  59. I'm so sorry, Sam! I know you're heartbroken. We'll all miss Sumatra's poses in your photos, but we'll look forward to seeing your new kitten. I know he won't replace Sumatra, but perhaps he will fill that void . You are in my thoughts. You've certainly had a tough year or two!

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    1. Hello Linda, not to sound so spiritual, but I think David and I live with such great passion, we know there are beginnings and there are ends....If we never opened our heart, we would never know deep love or deep pain. Just last night we looked into each others eyes " do you want to do this again" and we both replied with tears in our eyes.." oh Yes"... As hard it is to say goodbye, the joy and moments of many more years will no doubt be the medicine we nee. xx

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    2. we need.... yes the pitter of little feet and the constant demands of our heart and soul....is enticing....

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  60. Oh, I'm so sorry. I wish I was elegant in writhing to convey how I feel about this. I truely feel for both of you. I know though Sumatra will live on in your hearts.

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    1. HI Theresa...I feel you sweetie...when we care for someone, we do feel their excitement and their pain. xxx

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  61. Samm, sending you my hugs and sympathy...

    Greetings from Holland

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  62. Wow! The mum and dad look wonderful. Any boy from that litter will be very handsome!

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    1. well Karen, we got some good news today, looks like a ragdoll kitten will be ready next month and another in december...so we both agreed, 2 boys from different litters, same breeder though..we really wanted 2 different ones...we got pictures of one today, he is soooooo well you will soon ...xx

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  63. I'm so sorry for your loss, Samm, you write so beautifully about your beautiful Sumatra. I read your post once and read it again...and I'm crying with you and David. You will have Sumatra in your hearts forever...cherishing her memories always. Your hearts are sooooo loving, I like the idea of twins, you and David are the best parent keepers!! big hugs to you both...xo

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    1. Hello sweet Pauline...welll it has been such a rough few weeks, I was in such shock on Thursday and Friday, I could not do anything but sob...today is a tad easier, David is home and we have just talked and held each other, some tears and planned on more pitter patter of wee feet ...we were thinking of twins, but they looked so alike, we have decided to go with 2 boys from different litters...both so different and we can get one sooner, which I think will be good for all of us...T-cup is beside herself...she is constantly looking for Sumatra....she cries for her at night...been pretty sad these past few nights ....tomorrow will be better.....hugs too xx

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  64. Love from a cat is the most unconditional love that there is. Both you and David have been blessed. Sumatra will always be in your hearts and her being has filled you with sweet memories that will last forever. It is a testament to your love for her that you can open your hearts to another in the near future. You are both so very giving. Hugs to you both at this very sad time.

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    1. HI Ev, you know all about the love a cat...and we love our cats, we do have such a connection, it is hard to describe....I think it has a lot to do with their sense of independence...we are alike.
      And yes our hearts are full of love and even though both our hearts are so broken from the sense of loss...we know we will love again....thankyou sweetie x

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  65. What a sweet precious tribute to a beautiful cat and a part of your family. Just know that many of us are feeling your grief as we have walked a mile in those shoes. I lost a cat that was a love in my life too. I have my favorite picture of him by my chair where I see it every day. It's been 7 years and I still miss him. Your pictures will bring you comfort as you remember her. So sorry for your loss.

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    1. HELLO Sweet Karen, so many have walked in my shoes which is why I felt comfortable sharing, it allow us to be reminded of their expiry dates and never to take them for granted, they give their love so freely only wanting the same in return...Love the idea of photos...I placed one already on our mantle as clear as can be...and I will see other sweet frames , they really help... thank you for your kindness x

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  66. 2 boy kittens! How wonderful! T-cup will sound come round to their antics and tricks and adore them! Sumatra will be so happy to know you are opening your home to some new fur babies. How lovely. Bless

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    1. I would hope so Karen....the price of a loving completely is we will miss them when they are gone. and both David and I are willing to do that all over again x 2...I am sure Sumatra will realize she was such a wonderful teacher for me..She taught me to love with all of my heart.
      And much of the love I sent with her on her way...keeping some for me too..xxx

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  67. You HAVE had a lot of well wishes...I'm coming in late here. I always hate to read a post about losing a pet friend...I well know the grief it causes. Some say wait a bit to find another friend. I too display pictures of our dogs that have left us. It brings your mind to the memory of the day the pictures were taken and the fondest memories. Now anticipation of a new friend might help even just a little with the loss of Sumatra.
    xx, Carol

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    1. HI Carol. it all has helped...in the past it took a long time 1 yr.6 months till we got t-cup and almost the same time till we got Sumatra. We feel very fortunate to get one in just a few weeks and yet another by Christmas. We have so much in love of our hearts, we felt this was such a good sign and we are getting older....these may be our last cats lol. Will it help....? welll it won't hurt us that is for sure...we have many photos up of Sumatra...they are also all over our minds as she is everywhere in our home, even this morning xx

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  68. Samm
    I can understand how hard it was to let her go, we went through the same path with our cat this spring and you know what: everytime I make a tiramisu, I am crying, because Tizio always knew that he would get the leftovers of the creams to lick off, and everytime (today especially) I clean the cream pots, I am just looking for him to stand at my side and waiting for the pots to be "cleaned".
    These cats and pets are just part of the family and the sorrow is very big when we have to let them go. But they will always stay in our minds, you should have seen my tears falling into the cream today, and I thought of you and Sumatra. She was a wonderful lady, and of all the pics you posted the last months of her, I just love the one when she looks out of the window, she looked so divine...
    Huge hugs my dear

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    1. Sweeeeeeeet Judy, I remember when Tizio passed....I know you so understand. So many reminders when they were so much part of our daily lives...Funny my girls did not like cream at all, but tea and coffee, oh my...they did not want to drink it but they loved the smell. They would always be as close as the cream in my coffee..odd lol She really was a lady in so many ways...it is going to be quite an adjustment for us to have 2 boys.... love ya Judy xx

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  69. When your beautiful Sumatra reaches Rainbow Bridge, she will be greeted by so many sweet fur-babies including my Sherlock and Zoe. We all have been there so we can relate to your grief. Sending hugs for Arizona....

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  70. Ahhh Gracie, that is such a beautiful thought...nothing would be finer to know we will see them all again someday...for now they live completely in my heart... I am sooooo sorry you too had to experience this emptiness that only pet keepers could possibly understand xxx

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  71. To adore and love a cat is one thing for them to do the same another..I so feel for you..I lost my 2 within 6 months of each other, both were 17 and even now 7 years later I look at their pictures and remember ........I so feel for you...I imagine my two over the rainbow , ....they didn,t like each other here so I imagine they are the same there.....never gone in my heart....as your beautiful girl will always be. Xxx

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    1. Hi sweet lady....again, we know don't we? Who am I kidding? I know that emptiness will be there a long while...no new kitties will be able to erase the pain, but they will keep me busy so I don't sink into that hole that only sees darkness...I am really trying...it is harder than anything I could possibly imagine...and it is a club that has more than 1 member....we all will shed a tear again today..thank you for your sweet note xx

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  72. Samm I could hardly read this through my tears. I have no idea how you wrote it - I'm sure I wouldn't be nearly as strong as you. You have my love and my prayers. blessings, marlene

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    1. I thought the same Marlene...how can I write, but it has helped, between the tears and sobs, I find it easier to share this with YOU, you who are there trying to pick up the pieces for me...your words are like hugs, your prayers - the strength we need to get through one more day...this living soul managed to get into our hearts so deep, it hurst to breath sometimes xx

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  73. Dear Samm, I am so very sorry to read this. I am not eloquent in words as so many are but I want you to know that I lift you and David up in prayer weekly. You both have been through so much. I have started 3 sentences and can't find the right words to finish what I want to say so will close in saying, I send my love and many hugs across the miles.

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    1. Hi Thearica,...your words are bandaids to our hearts. We are so distraught at times, both of us consumed with such sadness. We know all about grieving and losses but this one, well this one has us crushed.. Today was a very sad day for us.....We just stayed together and talked and held one another..xxx

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  74. Heel veel sterkte toegewenst...je kunt ze niet missen en het blijft altijd een open wond.....ben in gedachten bij jullie!! Lieve groetjes Petra

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    1. I wish you much strength ... you can not miss them and it will always be an open wound ..... in my mind with you !! Kind regards Petra

      Hello sweet Petra. it is hard no mistaken there, just when I think we are good today, I sit still and sob.....I miss her so much. xx

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  75. T-Cup is a pretty girl also, I'm sure she misses Sumatra as much as you do.
    Your new kitty will be just as loved, I'm sure.
    What gorgeous kitties!
    I hope your heart heels soon, even though Sumatra will never be forgotten.
    Take care, and keep busy, it helps.
    Marilyn

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    1. hi Marilyn, thank you for your gentle note..we are trying ..xx

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  76. I am so so sorry for your loss! I am similar in that I go out and get a new pet right away. He or she is never a replacement of the last, but I simply must have a furry someone to pour my love into. Hugs to you and family.

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    1. thank you Shari. your visit means a lot

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  77. I am so sorry Samm. You know I share your tears all too well. I still cry every day over losing Harrington in June. These precious creatures take a piece of our hearts with them. Sending you and David hugs for your hearts.

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    1. Ahh MIchelle, I did not know about Sweet sweet Harrington. I am so sorry too....they certainly take a piece of us with them... will we ever be the same? Possibly not, but our hearts no doubt will grow to fill the emptyness. x

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  78. Oh Samm. I've been so behind in blog reading so I'm just now catching up. I am so, so very sorry. I too felt in my heart that her time was near. I remember that pain so well though it has been a lot of year. My girl was almost 18 when she left us and at that time we had just lost my nephew and I has started fertility treatments. To say that I was a zombie at that point is putting it lightly. I'm glad to read that you will have some new fur babies soon to bring you happiness again. Big hugs to you my friend. She will forever remain in your hearts.

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    1. Thank you sweet Michele. Anyone who knows the cycle of a sick feline would certainly recognize the signs. We did too. We just tried everything and everything was just not enough. So we said our SAD BYES as there were no GOOD BYES to be felt...only sadness. It is beautiful today. A beautiful warm autumn, we are sitting outside just welcoming the waves of emotion so our hearts never forget what it is to love and lose. For her we would do it all over again....Thank you and I too am sorry that any one of us have to say SAD BYES to those we love so tenderly and completely.
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  79. Ohhh, I'm sorry. You knew the time close. Bless your heart. Thinking of all of you. I'm sure you had a wonderful Thanksgiving counting your many blessings. What a blessing she was to all of you. Much love.

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    1. HI Corrie, we were just chatting about how she was doing...God knows we have to enjoy every tickle, smile and laughter these wee creatures give us....no regrets..xx

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  80. Sending you amd David hugs, Samm. Our fur babies are very special. xxx

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    1. Hello sweet Christine.felt that hug...thank you ....and yes our pets/fur babies as you call them are
      gifts that really keep giving even long after they are gone xx

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  81. Samm, I am so sorry for your loss. Sumatra will always hold a special place in your heart and in Davids.

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    1. Hello Connie, how kind of you, really! At times like this you know who matters..and you do..
      It has been a very sad few days, we know she will live in our hearts forever. x

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  82. Dear Samm. I am so very sorry for your the loss of your dear dear companion. I do know how very much she meant to you. Bless you and David and may the depth of your sorrow be filled with the joy of your memories..

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    1. HI Wendy.I think anyone who knew us knew of the love we shared...all those blessing and prayers really helped..we are so much better this morning x

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  83. Oh Samm, my dear friend, I just read it. I am so sorry and my thoughts are with you. I have been through all this years ago and I can promise: The pain will get better and you will never forget your little darling and will love to look at all this wonderful pictures and think back of her wonderful character.
    I send you a long and warm hug!

    Hilda

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    1. Hello Hilda, when it comes to pets be it dogs, cats and even bunnies .....our hearts get broken. The upside of it all, is that we do have hearts that are full of love and we have much more to share. There will be more pitter patter of little feet and we welcome the blessings that will our home once again. Thank you for that long warm hug xxxx

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  84. I am just today seeing this...I am so sorry Samm.

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  85. A very touching and loving post. I wish I could have written something half that nice for my little guy Dexter (a sheltie). Lost him last October and it still hurts.
    So sorry for the loss of your furry child and companion

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    1. Carla, when you speak with your heart especially the love of your Dexter, you would be surprised what would fill your page. It has been a week now, and my heart is so preoccupied with my sweet girl. I cry less, but I am sad...I think it will be awhile ... How could we possibly ever et over the loss of such a devoted "friend"....x

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  86. So very sorry to hear about your precious kitty...I am glad she gave you so much joy while you enjoyed each others company.

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    1. Thank you sweet lady....she was my velcro for sure....and now, well it is a wave of emotions xx

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  87. Your words are so tender and could have been words straight from my heart. We lost a beloved pet a little over a year ago and it was rough. We adopted a rescue about 4 weeks later because our Sophie was grieving so bad for her sister. Took a while for the heart to really open up to let another in but wow has she stole our hearts now! Praying for your family and wishing you well with your expected twins... What fun, two kitties at once, they will be such entertainment!

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    1. Hi Lisa..I think it is a universal language..the love of our pets and the emotions they evoke...and I would not have it any other way....for years of happiness, we grieve......we are looking forward to pitter patter lol. x

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  88. Dear Samm, I am so sorry to read about your loss. My heart goes out to you. The love of a cat is forever in our hearts. May yours feel Sumatra's gentle touch everyday and may you find comfort ... {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} <3 Pat

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    1. HI Pat, each day gets better, I still miss her tenderly....there is such an emptiness in our home...
      and we are very grateful for the memories...thank you for the hugs..x

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  89. This is the first time I visit your blog and I feel so sorry about the loss of your lovely Sumatra. I lost my sweet 13 y/o Lucy in July, from kidney failure. She was a chocolate point Himalayan with face and eyes just like Sumatra's, only her chin was also dark. She was also my shadow, especially since my spouse left 3 years ago. My son and I were with her while she was helped go at the Vet's; we then brought her home so that the other pets could say their goodbyes and while we waited for the cremation service. We had to do the same with our two elderly Scotties just a year earlier. Lots of heartbreak. To those of us who love animals, our pets are family and they give us everything they have, unconditionally. As hard as it is to see them go, the memories they leave behind are priceless and will stay in our hearts forever. Rest in peace, beautiful Sumatra, play with my Lucy across the Rainbow Bridge...

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    1. Hello Dulce, You know too well the sadness that goes with the loss of our sweet souls...She sounded beautiful your Lucy. We were talking about Sumatra this evening, I was saying to my husband that part of me is gone, something terribly missing in my heart...I still have moments of sadness, and then I remember all the love and joy we experienced together and we both agree, it was worth it all, even our broken hearts..it was all worth it...Here we are planning for 2 more wee ragdolls within weeks of one another...As sad as we are, we know the emptiness we are feeling will soon be filled with love and our hearts will mend once again...That is the price we pay for loving and being the recipient of a living creature that depends on us...They stop breathing so we can continue breathing for them...xxx

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  90. You have my deepest sympathies on the loss of your dear Sumatra. Even though I'm "dog" person and not a cat person, the loss is still the same. Reading your story has brought tears to my eyes. I still cry over dogs that I've lost decades ago, we can fill the empty "spot" with another, but each new animal can never "replace" the one we've lost.

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    1. Thank you Carmen, and you are right you know, you don't have to be a dog or cat person to know the grief of losing a PET we call family.... WE can never replace them, but the lesson here, is we still have so much love to give and these new kittens will fill an emptiness that longs to be filled and we will do it all over again...because we realize how much they LOVE us for it!

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